Thursday, February 5, 2009

Dec '08 - Jan '09

Okay okay I know how lazy I have been with this the last few months but I like to add a slide show of pictures as well and frankly I have not wanted to do it... But I will...

So Lets see the last month well as most of you know we went to SLC for christmas which was great, but I do have to say I do not miss the snow or being cold, there was so much snow it was ridiculous... The kids had a bit of fun in the snow though... Christmas was great and for the first time I actually didn't feel stressed... How ever giving up my kids for part of the day was really hard for me and I feel bad for the kids because they have to go from house to house to house to please everybody... It sucks when you have to revolve your life around others to please them... But all in all in was a great time and I know my kids had a great time... It was good for them to see Jeremy...
I am so grateful to my family for helping us to get up to Utah for Christmas so we could be together for the holidays... I got to spend a ton of time with my Grandma and Grandpa Lukes and I actually learned things about my grandmothers past that I never knew... I can honestly say that they are some of the strongest people I know they are incredible people and I am honored to call them my grandparents. It was so great to see my family and friends that I got to see... I wish I would have had more time to visit with more of my friends but I will be down often.
We also spent a lot of time visiting Kylie, Kayla's bestest friend and it is just so much fun to watch them together and Wesley tagging right along... ( I think Wes has a crush on Kylie he always has to sit by her and be close to her, Its the cutest thing ever!!!) But it was so great for me too because I got to spend some much needed time with my Bridget, we had so much fun and made so many great memories, I also got to meet Brooklyn for the 1st time and I enjoyed it so much.
I also got to go back to my roots at Sucasa a few nights while I was down and it was so great. I didn't think I would miss that place but I do... I saw so many of my regulars and friends and I was reminded of how great people are and why I stayed as long as I did... Sucasa will always be considered a second family to me...

Lets see what else... oh yeah I got to meet up with some friends that I haven't seen in years and we had a great time hanging out I only wish I had more time with them... I got a lot of family time in and met my new niece Hailey, but I didn't get the chance to meet my nephew Bennet but soon I hope... BUt it was great to be around the family...



New years was bitter sweet for me it was sort of like an turning point in my life, It pulled at my heart in so many ways... I was sad to experience it alone in a sense, but I was so happy that I have gotten "ME" back, that I have my kids and that I have a whole lot of incredible people in my life... I reflected on the last year And I realized that even though I lost a lot, I gained a whole lot more... I got a lot closer to my family, I found out I have a sister, Alex, who I am excited to get to know along with my niece Catherine, I truly found out who really mattered in my life and who my true friends are, I gained some great friends whom I owe tremendously for what they have done for me, but most importantly I gained a new out look on life and a new meaning and understanding of who I am and who I want to be which will in the end help me and my children to grow so much as a family and individuals...

I hope you all have a great year this year...
I miss and Love you all!!!
Ambs